Fire & Water

"I was a sensitive boy, always highly aware of my surroundings. I was wired to think about so many things all at once. This made each of my thoughts difficult to isolate. I was tender and I memorized facial expressions and tried to make sense of all gestures and mannerisms. I constantly looked for clues as to how anyone else was feeling and I would rush to make sure others felt comfortable. This is where I would often second guess everything I was doing and wonder if I was making things worse. I would look in their eyes and feel either panic or warmth. I'd listen to everything at once, losing any portion of reason. I'd miss all the truth and beauty because I looked too closely. I was a sensitive boy and loved too deeply and hurt too deeply. My dilemma was this, I was both fire and water, warm and wet, hot and cold, all the time..."