Die Hard Romantic

From the Desk of Dorothy Desdamona Dixson:

A subjective yet objective psychological evaluation and analysis of Ryan Luke Jevne. Provided with the intention to diagnose and assist the individual in maintaining a healthy and sober state of mind. All information provided here is observational only, with the intended purpose of supporting him in mental health and addiction recovery.

Ryan has stress arising from suppression of physical sexual desires and insufficient consideration from bodily needs, with anxiety from existing situations that he feels are disagreeable. He has an unsatisfied need to ally himself with others whose standards are as high as his own and to stand out from the common herd. His control of his sensual instincts restricts his ability to give himself, but the resulting isolation lends to the urge to surrender and allow himself to merge with another. This disturbs him, as such instincts are regarded as weaknesses to be overcome. Ryan feels that only by continued self-restraint can he hope to maintain his attitude of individual superiority. He feels the need to be loved or admired for himself alone, he values the attention, recognition and the esteem of others. He demands the esteem to be an exceptional individual. He has stress resulting from the feelings of belittlement and misunderstanding. Ryan feels he is in an invidious position, that trust, affection and understanding are being withheld and that he is being treated with a humiliating lack of consideration. He feels he is being denied the appreciation essential to his self-esteem and that there is nothing he can do about it. Disheartened by the love struggle against difficulties with no encouragement, he feels he is getting nowhere, that instead of the admiration he needs, he is constantly misunderstood. Ryan wants to escape the situations, but cannot find the strength of mind to make the necessary decisions. 

Ryan needs a peaceful environment, he wants release from stress and freedom from conflicts or disagreements. He takes pains to control the situation and its' problems by proceeding cautiously. He has sensitivity of feelings and a fine eye for detail. He remembers nearly every word others say to him. He needs a way of escape from all that oppresses him and is clinging to vague and illusory hopes, a die hard romantic. He needs and insists on having a close and understanding relationship, or at least some method of satisfying a compulsion to feel identified. His imagination is an attempt to compensate for this and other conflicts. Ryan feels obstructed is his desires and prevented from obtaining the things he regards as essential.

Ryan wants to broaden his fields of activity and insists that his hopes and ideas are realistic. He is distressed by the fear that he may be prevented from doing what he wants and needs. He needs both peaceful conditions and quiet reassurance to restore his confidence. Ryan is able to achieve physical satisfaction from sexual activity, but is restless and inclined to be emotionally withdrawn, which prevents him from becoming deeply involved.

Ryan needs to achieve a stable and peaceful condition, enabling him to free himself from the worry that may be preventing him from achieving all that he wants. The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond his capabilities, or reserve of strengths, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal, yet admitted, inadequacy. Ryan reacts by seeking outside confirmation of his ability and value in order to bolster his self-esteem. He is inclined to blame others so that he may shift the blame from himself. Ryan is anxiously, but hopefully searching for solutions and prone to compulsive inhibitions and compulsive desires, which serve as temporary delights and distractions from deeply seated traumas that have yet to be dealt with.