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Loose Cannon

"I feel like a loose cannon lately. Like I'm on the verge of losing my mind." He confessed.

"Why is that, can you tell me more about it?"

"I feel lost and alone in this town. I moved here to be with a man I love, a man I felt safe with. I built my world around him. When I no longer felt safe, I had to end the relationship. This town and all the people in it only remind me of him. All the places I go are all the places we went. I feel like I'm going to see him around every corner, every day. I can't live on the edge of that anymore. I feel like I'm gonna lose it, every day, all day long."

"I can understand that, you've told me some of that before, you seem to be stuck in a thought loop, one you need to get out of. From what you've told me before, you've got more here than just him. You've got a job you love, and the people you work with love you. You say that you all laugh all day long and you have fun together. Right? And you have your parents, and your brother. And you're getting your life back together. You're getting out of debt, you have a place of your own, and a car. You have two beautiful children. You have more going for you than you realize. Try to look at what you have, not what you've lost. You may still love that man, but he wasn't good or right for you. He was malicious in the end, you need to remember that. He can't still hold any power over you. Just learn to live your life without the thought of him, or the fear of running into him. It's not healthy."

"I'm trying to work through it. It takes me forever to get over things, I hold on to things longer than I should."

"That's to be expected. It takes as long as it takes. You'll get through it."

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