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Heart & Soul

Ryan sat in the therapist office for another visit. During the last session he had confessed to his homosexual desires, the guilt associated with that, and how he had been plagued with horrific waking nightmares. The kind that had him jerking himself out of bed before he even knew he was awake, only recalling bits and pieces from the dreaded dream world.

"It seems to me, these nightmares are probably the result of the guilt and shame that you feel about your sexuality." The therapist wasn't wrong in his analysis.

"You're probably right." Ryan agreed.

"Would you like to try a simple technique that may help you remember and possibly control the dreams and nightmares that are obviously torturing you??"

"Of course, I'll try anything..." Ryan was desperate.

"Before you fall asleep at night, when you're in that place just before you drift off, say out loud to yourself, 'I will remember my dreams.'"

Ryan tried this technique and regretted if for months. Not only could he remember and control his dreams, but those dreams revealed to him that he was in a terrible place as far as his heart and soul was concerned.

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