"This is part of your journey, it always has been, whether you had chosen to ignore it your whole life or not. Perhaps you could have avoided the anxiety, depression, shame and guilt concerning your sexual identity if you had confronted your demons long ago." She said.
"I feel I did. In a way. It wasn't as if I was running away or ignoring anything all this time. I didn't feel anything or anyone was missing from my life. I wasn't hiding anything. I just wasn't effected by it, so much as I am now in my life. Why now, at age thirty six am I finally able to admit to myself and others that I find men attractive? And not just any man, some men, a few, very select. It's not as if I am looking for a man to simply have sex with. It's more than that. It goes deeper than that, to the very core of who I am. I desire a real human, body and soul connection with a man. Does that make sense??"
She was stunned, and didn't know what to say.
Instead she prescribed another medication.
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